Break Free Of The Spiral

I’ve fallen into a rut lately. I would rather sit on my behind and watch TV than do the things that I should be doing, like writing, working out, cooking for myself, going to the store…basically all of the things that adulting requires, I want nothing to do with it.

But I don’t want nothing to do with it, I don’t want to sink back into that depressive cocoon where the TV and my fuzzy blankets lull me into the tempting thoughts of “It’s OK, you don’t have to do that, someone else will do everything for you”. This voice is a lie, no one is going to take care of my responsibilities because, well, they’re mine.

So how does one get out of ruts like this?

Catch it

First and foremost, you have to catch yourself in the spiral. The spiral being those ever so helpful thoughts that if you really actually think about them, anxiety will spike and the instinct to hide comes creeping through your body like a vine crawling up a building. Very subtly getting taking over more and more of your mind.

What’s happening?!

What thoughts are triggering the anxiety? What thoughts triggered the depression? When you are happy and suddenly feel yourself becoming anxious or depressed, what are the thoughts surrounding those emotions?

Talk yourself up

Feeling like this is natural. We’re not perfect, sometimes we will get anxious, sometimes we will get depressed and that’s ok. It’s ok to acknowledge it to yourself, it’s healthy actually. Don’t beat yourself up if these feelings overwhelm you, you’re only human and life can be stressful. Allow yourself to break down and feel whatever you need to feel, but remind yourself that this isn’t who you are and you have the power to change what hurts you. You have the right to be happy and the ability to handle whatever it is that’s bothering you.

Take charge

You decide when the depression stops. You decide when the anxiety no longer has a hold on you. You have the power over your own mind which changes your brain which controls your body. YOU are the master and YOU CAN DO IT.

My demons lie in the fact that I don’t really have any food in the house for dinner. I need to eat because I need to maintain my weight (My metabolism is just way to darn fast). I need to go to the store because I am worth a healthy, home cooked meal. That healthy, home cooked meal is not only going to feed me today, but it’s also going to be my lunch tomorrow so that’s double incentive to get off my lazy arce and head to supermarket.

Demon number two lies in the fact that I didn’t write a post last week and it’s taken me this long to write the post for next week. Last week I unfortunately had a migraine the day that I had set aside to write which meant that I could barely open my eyes for 24 hours let alone stare at a computer screen. It’s understandable and nothing to beat myself up over because life happens, we can’t control that. What we can control is our reaction to it so I am choosing to no longer react by sinking into a depression, I am taking steps to alleviate the cause of the stress. If I’m stressed over the fact that I haven’t written yet, I better get to writing. You get the picture.

Last but not least, I will find something to be grateful for. I am so very grateful for the opportunity to express myself through writing. My heart is over filled with joy and gratitude when I think about all of the doors writing has opened and all of the demons it has caged. I am truly blessed to be able to use words to do such wonderful things and so very blessed to be able to share that with the world.

God Bless

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Breaking the Lies that Steal Our Lives

Why is it so hard to get up the courage to help people? I feel like we don’t think we are relevant enough. I’m afraid to help him because he’s going to think I’m dumb. How am I going to help her when I myself am broken and can’t figure out my own life? We are each our very own unique brand of broken. We are buried under lies that we believe are truth.

The brain follows the mind, what you actively choose to think about becomes your brain. So when we hear something, or actively think a thought, that becomes a physical memory in our brains. Something bad happens because, well, life happens. We can’t control what happens, our power comes from how we choose to react to it. Those responses are also stored as memories in the brain. So if you think negatively, your brain doesn’t know how else to process information. The more you think about something, the stronger that memory becomes until it becomes your reality. This is how a lie becomes a neurological disorder. This is how a lie becomes a reality.

So how do we break that pattern? If it really is up to us, if we really do have a choice, how do we choose differently? That’s just it. Choose differently. Let me tell you from experience, it’s terrifying, but what a rush it is to actively take control of your life. It’s not easy, and it’s not instant, but it’s worth it and it works. This is not a one time thing. It takes practice and determination. How long have you been dwelling on the hurt? How strong is this memory? It’s going to take some time to reteach your brain and that’s ok. Its not just a one time, “that’s it, I’m done.” It’s a million choices that tare down the foundation of the lie and rebuild the truth. But you can do it. I believe in you.

What is Depression

What is depression?

Depression is…Depression is knowing that your house is a mess but you are too tired to clean it.

Depression is smelling the dirty dishes in the sink but the thought of washing them is overwhelming.

Depression is knowing that your husband is out of clean pants but you can’t wrap your head around washing them. And then putting them in the drier…and then, the part you dread most, folding them.

Depression is wanting to go outside and enjoy the beautifully warm fall day, but staying inside because you don’t feel like moving. And then hating yourself for it the entire time you’re laying there. Inside.

Depression is hearing your stomach growl with hunger but not being able to find the motivation to feed yourself. Let alone clean up after.

Depression is choosing to stay down even when the thought is tearing you up inside. Making you feel worthless. Telling you look. Look at all of these things that make you worthless. It’s so much easier to just. stay. down. Just don’t look at it and just don’t deal with it because it’s just too depressing.

 

What if we could change that? What if we mustered up the courage to take out that smelly trash?

What if instead of staying stuck in bed all day, we make the conscious decision to move to a chair outside?

What if we cleaned off the counter today because we’re worth it?

What if we made a sandwich?

What if we gave ourselves no other option but to tell that couch where to shove it and call a friend to go out for coffee?

What if we took matters into our own hands, into our own minds and decided to make a change? To figure out what happiness looks like and mirror our lives after that instead?

Not just once either. A million times. A million good decisions that lead to happiness. That lead to health and healing!

We are beautiful and powerful creatures. We have the power to create our own reality and to make good things in our lives for we are fearfully and wonderfully made in the image of the most powerful King of Kings. What do we have to fear except for change?